I LAY MY LOVE ON YOU;

{Monday, October 30, 2006}

WAH LAO I REALLY CANT STAND MY MOTHER'S MOTHER ALREADY OKAY. DAMNIT OKAY. OKAYOKAYOKAY. LIKE WHATS HER FUCKING HER PROBLEM OMG. NOT HER BUISNESS ANYWAY WHAT.
FUCKINASS

and all of youre out there right, stop asking me why i hate her so much okay. say what she good what she rock, i tell you, you have MY mother's mother then you come and crap okay. otherwise, YOU SHUT UP OKAY.

[[5:22 PM;

ADIOS!

life is just playing a prank on me. yes? yes?
say yes
NO.
aiyuh, happy lah, forever like that one.

the routine is like a piece of shit now and i have absolutely no breath? :O exciting
then i cant even remember the steps. damn pro can.
and my legs and my lungs and my hands and everything else die le.
i wonder how come im still alive though
better off dead i think (:

im honestly trying very hard, somehow it doesnt pay off.
WHAT HARD WORK WHAT SOW WHAT LAH
what the heck am i getting in return please, not even joy. PAIN.
gosh lah, even though i run its pain, at least im having FUN LOH.

then everythings in such a big mess.
philip is even more unorganised than me can. happy.
my whole life is a mess lah.
everything is just a mistake of my own

aye, i know ive been all emo and stuff these few days and i want to thank those people for cheering me up (:
and im glad teo's becoming a liverpool fan :D
oh yay ive got great friends and a horrible life.
im a waste of everyone's effort and time.

i think alot of people will be glad when i die
oh, esp my fam.
WOAH I LIKE TOTALLY CANNOT STAND THE SON OF MY STEPFATHER PLEASE.
pms lah he.
and whats wrong with my mother's mother.
i just want to slap both of them okay.
and i mean, IM TRYING TO SUBMIT MY OPTIONS and they have to scream at me.
WTFFFFF OKAY.
DAMN PISSED PLEASE.

then she not enough still have to go out and scold the maid.
she happy.

aye, i tell you life is meaningless and i give up hope in it.
i mean life is nothing
you study so hard suffer so much
to get a good job when you grow up, and earn money to enjoy yourself.
honestly, doesnt it mean that you dont suffer so much, you dont need to work so hard to enjoy yourself?
i mean, we could do w/o all that.
so must as well die, not born
just like a tv series.
you can live w/o watching it what! afterall, in the end, its happily ever after.
pointless, things are.
pointless, i say.

POINTLESS.

its become numb. its become where i lost touch.

for the info of some ~~pointless~~ people, i have not fallen out with my bf (im still happilly dreaming about torres) nor have i been DUMPED/REJECTED. thank you.

[[4:01 PM;

prince charles leh. ROCKER RIGHT :D

2 purity! i love love love!

hah, look at sining :D mis communication

hah, she looks funny yes? :D
i love maykun :D

woah the ultimate love okay :D
hohoho, shes becoming a liverpool supporter! :D

this is not goodbye i swear.

2purity the love that brought us through! <3

aye, im still feeling lousy

[[12:01 AM;

{Sunday, October 29, 2006}
I DIDNT SAY ANYTHING LAH.

im in a total mess. i havent decided on the subj combination yet.
and i feel like im a total loser
and i cannot take this anymore if its going to go on.
honestly, im going to collapse.

i mean like what the hell am i supposed to do next year w/o any of my friends?
im going to be a total failure/loser.
rocker.

everything's wrong now lah what the hell.
holidays are a time to rest, to sort things out, to clear up things.
and the heck is going on?
im having headache half the time.
happy.

i have a perfect family man.
a brother that calls me a jerk. and whats he going to call me next? bitch?
a mother that hates me and call my favourite clothes pieces of rags. and totally think that im the worst daughter ever that cannot understand her.
a stepfather thats like totally biased and queer and kuku and hates me too.
a grandmother that adds oil to the fire everytime and keeps talking pieces of crap. whats her problem.
i feel like crying ~~for joy~~
i have a rocker family man, the best one.

you know what. ever since some time ago, i felt that hey syncro aint that bad. its nice, with the friends, the coach's great. im having not that bad a time.
but what she said today just like totally put me off. you know how hurt i was. i was practically crying most of the time. yes, before it was a nice period of time, she thought i was great, and i was doing great. but now its different. im a complete mess, im doing very badly, im deproving like dont know what, while others are like of a level ten times higher. and she realised it. she realised she wasted time on me. and im just a very stupid non syncro swimmer. as she says: only smart people can be syncro swimmers. and evidently, im not. she realised and she gave up having high hopes on me. and i really cannot stand her suaning, her niaoing, her sacarsm. i give up. i surrender, and she doesnt even realised how much she hurt me.
just forget it, its a mess, im a mess. and i cant stand it anymore.
i give up, and i give up this sport. im not going to excell in it anyway. i mean look at our team, its not even that good and im the lousiest of the group.
sam the natural syncro swimmer, pris the natural swimmer, stephanie the fast/flexible best in the team, rebecca the ultra figure & flexible, natalie the small and light and full of hope, yongzhen the ever improving one, natasha ~~my twin~~ the from start good and still improving full of hope for future girl, shona & shony the sisters catching up smiling more, and me = the no standard & no posture & no strength & no speed &amp; no flexibility & full of attitude & stupid loser.
i want to quit. and im going to. just watch me.

what the best holiday i have. i cannot stand it already.
i honestly cant.
~~i cannot stand breaking down with no one seeing cause of stupid googles just cause of something she said/making a joke out of.~~

kayaking was fun
and my first sunburn is exciting. but im not looking forward to my second one of my life.

so is watching liverpool :D
oh yay crouch hah so cute i swear :D
~~i notice how clay aiken look abit like him :D~~
and i promise i love angmos much more.
i mean i saw a damn hot angmo in crystal jade and omg, damn hot + cute okay :D
and he's like at least 25. with a damn pretty girlfriend/wife.
i love angmos. i should migrate/go to some angmo country like spain or germany or even england to find my husband.

oh i was thinking. i cant believe relationships where you marry an old rich man and just wait for him to die to get money would work out.
i guess i belive in true love.
and i dont think i'll ever meet my dream guy.
i mean which ~~angmo~~ boyfriend will tell me to drink water :O

did i mention how i always limp nowadays.
my leg's just not there anymore.

i tell you i have the best life.
a life of a rocker

[[8:50 PM;

{Thursday, October 26, 2006}
everything is practise

as pele the world's best footballer says: everything is practise. how i hope thats right man. how i hope.

today = last day of school = me sad = no more purity = its the end.
today's the end lah fine
i tell you, i'll be missing 2p like OMG 999999999999999TRUCKLOADS okay ):
its like the best class anyone can hope for :D
i really love 2 purity alot
2 purity, I LOVE YOURE!
aye, i dont want 2007 lah heck what sec3 lah.
i'll seriously miss all of youre in 2purity, honestly and sincerely.
and i know i'll be different class from many people cause basically im too stupid
but i know all of us will stay as friends
smile at each other as we pass by each other :D

oh ya lah i went football websites again.
and look!

India pulled out of the 1950 World Cup because their team were not allowed to
play in bare feet!

omg so shocking right hahah :D

The latest goal was scored by David Platt of England, in their second round
match against Belgium in 1990 after 119 minutes.

hah, so cool please :D
oh and Gordon Strachan once said : “Football is a simple game. It’s just the players who make it complicated.”
woah omg so true ;D
John Gregory also once said : “Strikers win you games, but defenders win you championships.”
hah (: somehow i agree :D

aiyuh, i dont know why lah. maybe its only me
but hor, i really really cannot stand my mother anymore lah whats her f-ing problem omg. call me halfway say what i never got the EC letter
say what i should tell her
I MEAN I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FISHMONGER'S THING IS GOING ON OKAY.
what you want me to do lah damnit.
so fine lah, im stupid loh, i have no communication skills loh.
she ask me if my teacher got see me.
as a singaporean: it meant as DID NATH COME AND SPEAK TO ME.
so obviously i answered no lah cause the only thing was that nath told me was that i was laughing as i sang the national anthem, smiling like a fool, and yawning as a fool

1. whats wrong with smiling, im a smiler. i smile cannot ah, i happy CANNOT IS IT.
2. and you should be glad im smiling, it means i like the national anthem okay
3. you should be glad that at least im singing, i dont normally sing okay, damn you.
4. this time i swear i didnt yawn, one of my records and you still say what i yawn
5. and LOTS of people yawn loh, its cannot control one what.
6. and what offence is it to yawn while singing national anthem? cause mainly, as i said, CANNOT control. i swear cannot. and if its an offence and i cannot control then i dont sing lah, you ridiculous woman.

woah, i tell you. its the worst "conversation" i ever had with nath okay.
damnit.
so yes, i told my mother no. and she says: YOU MEAN YOURE NEVER GO TO CLASS?
and i tell her ya lah got go class ~~lah otherwise? go macs?~~
then she what scold me no communication skills what see that means she see me lah. okay fine loh, i dont understand loh, im stupid loh
yeah, so i have NO COMMUNICATION SKILLS whatsoever. so i be a dumb lah
can talk and no communication skills then talk so much for what lah.
so i should go and bury my head in soil in shame okay.
and it has to be my fault everytime.
i mean, her english is PERFECT loh, the best man, everybody but me can understand her loh.
im just plain stupid fine lah, i wonder how can i be her daughter when i dont even understand her omg.i mean i can UNDERSTAND my stepfather and i cannot understand that biological mother of mine.
and i dont understand why my stepfather can talk to me patiently & try to make me understand ~~how i've made him a fool and that the worst stepdaughter he can get cause i made a fool out of him in front of everyone else~~ and that my mother simply cannot, and that she has to talk to me like im the last person she want to talk to, that im just a bloody burden to her, a whole source of trouble for her. in her life and that she regretted not sending me to the orphanage.
did i mention she was SHOUTING at the phone for the whole phone conversation and while i was still wondering what the fish, she HANGED UP ON ME.
i had to bear her ULTRA LOUD voice, had to stand that just to hear the phone click halfway.
and although my father did talk(not shout) to me, it just seem to me that in the future, i should tell him everything i know, whether right or wrong (oh btw, i got SCOLDED for telling wrong info last time uhem) to save him from making a fool out of themselves infront of my teacher, infront of other teachers.
thats not all, and he blames me for not telling him anything so that influenced him to copying down all the average shit making him look kuku cause no one else is doing it.
fine loh, everything is my fault, im a trouble maker.
so now im going to take PURE GEOG, with a subject i ~~totally dont understand~~ will have a passion for cause im a "math person", PHYSICS & best of all! elect CHINESE LIT. learning about some shit houloumeng person.
aint it a wonderful stream, im going to so love my upper sec life totally.
really.
oh and by the way,my father once told me: YOURE A STUDENT, YOUR DUTY IS TO STUDY AND STUDY AND NOTHING ELSE. THINK ABOUT NOTHING ELSE
so if by right i listen to him, i shouldnt even know whatws trip science okay, and i honestly DONT KNOW WHATS GOING ON. and everythings my fault somehow.
how exciting.

aye, huixian's phone call was nice and really nice (:

what the heck okay. my knee is like. and my there is like. and my shoulder is like. and my brain is like. and my everywhere is like. WOAH, YOU KNOW I JUST HOPE TO HAVE LESS LIFE HONESTLY. i mean each trng im like commiting suicide to no avail.
i should just go and die lah. jump down the building like the beanbag in get's wonderful story.
honestly, i dont think a sport that's hurting me badly should overtake my life. i dont even go for prac now and everyone misses me and i have a game soon and RC is coming soon. i already gave up to continue this sport thats hurting me and now this stupid sport is dominating my life.
happy loh, thats how wonderful a sport can get.
even the sport that im so crazy about has not achieved it loh, happy.
im honestly not a robot, i need a break.
and i mean so intense all the competition FOR WHAT< color="#ffffff">but what are the odds? we're going to HK for gosh sake. if youre still expecting us to bring something back. lets not break your hearts shall we, lets be frank, NO, we wont bring a single thing back. so whats the use
whats the use

look, im really tired okay.
im physically tired, im mentally tired. if you insist its me. fine then its me. everything is all about me, and youre right. when have you not be wrong really. its all just a wishfull thinking of my part.

sam! hey look, i know time is rough, emotions are hard to control. life's a piece of shit and i dont disagree that its hard to cheer up. but my dear, no matter what, youre happy, youre sad, im here for you alright. i cant do anything anymore, but i want you to know, until youre ready, i'll be here for you, whenever you need someone. im here, i promise.

2purity! youre are my love okay. i'll never forget this class and the memories with it.

yes, love has brought us here! (:

stupid blogger messed up again. and im sorry i blog boringly, im sorry i take so long to blog.

[[8:39 PM;

{Wednesday, October 25, 2006}
its a test

HAH, I WATCHED LIVERPOOL VS MANU AFTER ALL! (:
ubber depressing though.
but first half wasnt that bad yes? :D
im still upset that the stupid manager prefers kuyt to crouch/fowler
honestly, kuyt has no finish

AYE, i think i should stop this. like stop being a football fan.
i was thinking, whats the use really, me so crazy over it
its like im following the epl and the laliga what for.
i find myself so weird. and i actually know like thrice the number of footballers compared to the number of people i know in school
maybe its getting out of hand?

but anyway, pools can totally forget about winning epl now.
so while i silently support pools in despair, rejoicing as they win, i shall support manu to go ahead and win epl :D
honestly, i think xy is right. they ARE more entertaining, and dont make my heart cramp so much.
whats more, gerrard might be leaving pool
by then, liverpool will be worse than manchester city.
literally.

i watched high school musical AGAIN yesterday.
tsk
then i realised that dorky alan is NICK WHITAKER! :O
it suprises me how dorky he can become :D
but still damn cute heh :D
and i just realised he starred as the main role in money or mission.
OMG. I WANNA WATCH! :(

so style, hohoho :D

i enjoyed my trip in malaysia, and i missed all of you too!
anyway, i went to KL instead :D
and watched the match in a IRISH BAR :D
damn cool can, alot people there were liverpool supporters which suprised me.
i thought the world ceased of liverpool supporters already :D
hahah, and my evil father was laughing at me for the ferdinand goal.
damn.

aye, i dont understand how my father or in fact, anyone can stand my mother.
she literally sucks
but as i thought(again) further, i realise im just like her.
hot tempered, loud, shorttempered, rough, etc
and i got so disgusted with myself.
aye, what am i going to do in life?
im just another of my mother, no one can stand me in the future.
gosh, i hate myself.

oh, victor wasnt that bad (:
BUT GOSH WAS THAT IDIOTIC RICHARD A PEST.
i felt like punching him a whole lot of times.
but im a civilised girl :D

she changed the routine again.
oh yay hurraye.
HOW MARVELLOUS.
so slowmind karon has to adapt to changes again
-claps hand

im honestly tired
im worn out
but it doesnt concern you eh

OH SHUT UP HONESTLY
ITS A TEST REALLY.
LIFE'S A DAMN TEST
AND IF YOU DONT PASS IT.
youre a failure, a patrick

[[5:20 PM;

{Saturday, October 21, 2006}
OH CUMMON BRING IT ON.

okay, i have like alot to say, but you know, everytime you have tons of things to blog. you come to the computer and you forget it all. OH YEAH GREAT :D

yes, and i just realise I'LL BE MISSING THE LIVERPOOL VS MANU MATCH OKAY.
damnit. the most exciting match of epl and im gonna miss it.
oh yay, what a perfect time to go malaysia, yes?
-ULTRA PISSED STARE.
and not only that match
I'LL BE MISSING A.MADRID'S MATCH TOO.
tell me about luck. tell me how lucky i am.

aye, thats just one part of going to malaysia.
i'll be missing like 3 days of trng.
(oh i dont know if its a good thing)
and (well, thankfully) i'll be missing the presentation (:
but the thing is, i'll be going to malaysia
stuck in that big pathetic house feeling all so awkward
not even daring to shit okay.
with that idiotic pair of cousin whom i just want to slap.
at least victor has kinda grown up
BUT OMG RICHARD WILL LIKE TOTALLY GET ON MY NERVES.
hah, but im looking forward to cheryl's laughter :D

OH WAIT, WHAT AM I SAYING ALL THESE FOR?
:O not like youre know whos richard/victor hahahh (:

so yes, i'll be gone for 3 days ):
w/o handphone
w/o comp
w/o ANYTHING LAH.
that house is pathetic. tsk.

i edited all the colour for this blog and it think it looks horrible now.
im sorry but i dont really have colour coordination.
): and i dont want to change again. it takes years to do it okay ):

eurgh, i dont know why lah. but i guess im just being paranoid. i mean im not supposed to be irritated by her. shes my close friend and im not supposed to be irritated by her, talking about her behind her back but here i am feeling utmost irritated by her. she wasnt like that before, she wasnt this way. you wanna get close to the seniors im fine with it, afterall, a friend in everyone, yes? but youve changed so much. last year, you were totally another girl, the girl i was friend with, the girl i loved. not now, not how youve become. why are you this way now? cant you understand that people liked your previous self, not this way? you are constantly making a joke out of everything, even things that are not meant to. even melo talks in small volume and its occasionally and maybe perhaps burp a little too much? :O, but you? you have became IRRITATING. you have became just another girl that i personally do not like. stop AA, people dont like loud people. at least not me. and im sure there are people like me. please, we all miss the old you.
we want the old you back.

okay, im being paranoid.
whats the problem with me omg.

and whats their problem.
we werent that low loh, and they had to spoil our mood.
like that they happy loh.
look, i mean i know we disappointed you. but all i want to say is, some of us has tried their best, we really did. and we truely didnt want to disappoint youre. but we have. not only that. youre have also disappointed us. we thought we could accept youre, we could be close. looking back last year with D&J we had so much joy, so much closer. we expected youre to be the same. you must understand that we need time to adapt to the change. we're sorry, but we did try our best.
oh heck it, its just wishful thought on my part.
naive, people call it, NAIVE.

aye, trng again.
good luck cause i cant remember a single step for the team routine.
did i ever mention how i sometimes wish not to be born, to save a space for another baby?
i often ask myself why and what im living for.
but never able to come up with a reason.

please, we all miss the old you

[[1:23 PM;

{Friday, October 20, 2006}
ADIOS !

today is supposed to be one of my rare rest days
when nothing is up, just sleep and eat and nothing else.
JUST BEING BORED.

but apparently, it isnt even though theres like no school
LIKE NO SCHOOL LAH, can dont be so sadist please? ):

anyhow, the whole routine is changed and my brain is exploding
its like must remember changes in the TEAM and the DUET.
happy lah she, seeing i keep messing up ):
AND I BET I CANT REMEMBER A DAMN DRILL TODAY.
and who'll be happy?
NO ONE, oh great

and i seriously still cant figure out how im supposed to do pt with all my aches.
i think i do halfway, my body will collapse or something.
yeah, so whatever

aye, did i mention i love 2purity alot
and im only going to spend ONE more day with them
): its like omg can
AND I REALLY DONT WANT TO LEAVE 2 PURITY
what if next year i end up in a class im despised!
eurgh damnit lah i love 2 purity alot okay
i really love them alot can
EURGH WHATS WRONG WITH ME.
BUT I REALLY DO
why must life do this to me?
EXPLAIN TO ME AGAIN?

as my favourite line has been: LIFE IS A PEICE OF SHIT
not only that: LIFE IS UNFAIR
like hello, and we're supposed to adapt to this unfair piece of shit?
by right, and logic, we dont have to
but as life has proven to be a piece of shit, we HAVE to.
its like, you wanna live, this is what you have to live by.
this unfair piece of shit.

when is my free day gonna come
when can i actually rest?
oh i forgot, i should EXCLUDE that word from my vocab.
yeah, other than studies + swimming, NOTHING ELSE.
N-O-T-H-I-N-G.
i still have to get used to that life

okay, so this is my choice?
yes, it is
but am i happy with it?
I DONT KNOW LAH

[[11:11 AM;

{Thursday, October 19, 2006}
OH, thats right

oh, you know what, siyun just told me something.
AND ITS MAKING ME FEEL HORRIBLE
i mean, i knew i was stupid, but THIS STUPID?
omg, i dont even think of going to sec3 lah, stay back one year also no diff.

oh, and you know how irritating it is when you seem to have so much to say
but you see that person, and you'll go like : UHMMMMM
yuh, its fricking irritating i tell you.

OH, MY BRAIN IS UBBER SLOW OKAY.
can she dont treat me like i have a brain that can absorb things UBBER EASILY?!
oh gosh, i hate my brain

[[5:30 PM;

{Wednesday, October 18, 2006}
oh yeah

AYE, SHE BETTER NOT PISS ME OFF.

okay, so i have no stream to go,
im injured forever, and crippled forever

i have 3 big decisions in my life
i only can choose one.
and i dont know what the heck do i want.

oh you know, just damnit JUST DAMNIT OKAY.

[[4:51 PM;

{Tuesday, October 17, 2006}
a whole UGLY disaster

DAMNIT IM LIKE UBBER PISSED BY THAT MORONIC ~~BITCH~~PIECE OF SHIT.
EVEN MORE ANGRY THAN WITH THAT OTHER PIECE THAT THREW AWAY MY BOTTLE OKAY. i mean like WHEN THE FISHMONGER'S TIME WAS I A HYPOCRITE. you dont even have prove lah damn you. like to call names right, you loser. so fine lah, im a hypocrite lah, im a bitch lah, im a moronic loser lah, you happy loh. at least im not something you are lah loser, A ULTRA UBBER SUPER GLUE. i mean like you know why i just totally started to hate you. you will like totally send messages 24 hrs per day okay. i mean you rich lah, you happy loh. but you know what, i aint rich okay. I GET SCOLDED ONE OKAY. and its like you know how irritating it is to have someone sticking to you permanantly like everytime i see you. WAH LAO, sometimes i just need space lah, i need to be om my own can. like whats wrong with you please. i mean, people need their space de loh. you give people privacy can anot. and the relationship right, i didnt even think you would like treat it so serious please. its like youre acting like a total noob okay. moron. AND THEN NOW BLAME ME FOR HATING YOU cause you were irritating me BEYOND THE UTMOST STANDARD OF IRRITATING. like omg lah how you do it please. rocker lah you, i've never been so irritated by someone until like that okay. ~~not even by porlin/panshin~~ fuck you okay woah damn it. its like i never do anything to you at that time loh. i left you alone, i didnt even say anything lah, what hypocrite i ask you. i didnt even bother to talk to you lah. you dont come and crap with me okay. I AINT SOMEONE TO MESS WITH. wtfh, you so totally piss me off okay, you know i didnt loathe you that time, but now all i have for you is pure hatred lah fuck. i mean at that time it was just so irritating to have someone around with that ubber BUAYSONG face everytime around to make me pissed. but it was only irritating. but now, its beyond that, its like everytime i see you, i want to cruch your head and step on your eyeballs okay. and its like now you make it seem ENTIRELY my fault. okay loh, my fault loh, WHAT CAN YOU DO YOU BITCH. let me remind you that you were the one who started to irritate me first, the one that made me burst my message limit by like 1000. damn you, the one that caused me to be scolded EVERYTIME by my p_____ cause you just cant SHUT UP.
fuck you, just grow up lah kid, stop acting like youre a bloody spoilt brat

yes, as you can see.
im so holy pissed, so dont further piss me off.
and my you cant highlight the words, so HAHAH (:
okay, im so weird.

oh wait, im beyond weirdness

eoy are a complete disaster and so is everything else
(woah, I WANNA WATCH THE CHELSEA MATCH LEHHHHHHH :( )

so yes, anyway, intensive training is starting soon again, and i will reek of chlorine more and more.
-looks at my hair. HOW COME IT DOESNT BECOME BROWN ):
and like wth, shes still going to add things?!
tsk, its damn tiring already can. ):

wth can, i dont know what to do lah. everything is so fucked up and i dont wanna do anything anymore, i just feel like punching myself and asking myself, why cant my life be simply and easy. why much we make decisions that affect everything in life. ITS SO SHIT OKAY DAMNIT. and i get so pissed so easily nowadays, and i get further pissed cause i dont wanna. and i get upset so freaking easily i feel like punching myself and say: DONT BE A FREAKING LOSER LAH.

aye, why isnt there a rewind button in life.

(no, you cant highlight text, you just have to as smart as kc)

[[5:02 PM;

{Sunday, October 15, 2006}

IM A SWIMMER.
water is my element.

oh, but i play football too

[[2:57 PM;

yeah, i cant believe it
i actually woke up at 3.30 to watch an a.madrid game :D
hah, thank goodness they won, otherwise waste my efforts ;D

WOAH I TELL YOU TORRES DAMN CUTE HOHOHO (:

and i got my heart cramped for 1st half of 2nd half. if you understand :/
btw, i got my heart cramped for a longer time for the liverpool match okay.
tsk.
and pennant was so horrible i was like, when is he going off!
yeah, but bellamy proved his worthy lah

HAH, TORRES PENALTY DAMN NICE HAHAHAHHA
HIS SMILE DAMN CUTE HAHAH (:

woah, cannot stand it

anyway, i think i can remember the routine already!
hohoho (:
i cant believe im going to stand another month lah shit

yeah, so now what am i supposed to do huh

[[2:25 PM;

{Friday, October 13, 2006}
im patrick.

BYEBYE

trip science
pure geog
elective geog
elective hist
HK TRIP EXTENSION
everything

hello

loser world
stupid world
scoldings & canings
& more scoldings
to patrick's world

omg, i did so badly i dont even want to talk about it.

all i wanna say is:
i scored so low for everything, theres no combi i can take.
so im gonna get kick out of school
and by then, all i can do is be PATRICK

AND I HAVE TO SAY THIS I HAVE TO I HAVE TO I HAVE TO.
omfg EURGH I WANT TO CRUSH CANS.
wth wth wth X(999999999999999999999999999999 + 1)

scene1
once upon a time, i was very pissed off with my results. so i had to vent my anger on a lifeless pink dolphin bottle. i was crushing it trying to get rid of my anger, and kicking it.

scene2
i brought it back to class, continuing to vent my anger on the bottle because i knew that if i dont, i will just totally scold&kill people. so inderectly, i was being nice and trying not to harm anyone else. in other words: karon=good. as i was kicking the bottle near _____'s table, she stared at me (i dont blame her for that! nono, im understanding) , that wasnt all. suddenly she called me EVIL and proceeded to PICK UP THE BOTTLE and throw it into the nearby bin. and im like WHAT THE FISHINGMONGER'S PROBLEM DOES SHE HAVE. i was overwhelmed with shock followed by grief. like hello, thats a lifeless bottle. lifeless, dead, not breathing! what right does she have to call me evil just because i was trying to be nice and thus torture a non-living thing rather than HER. and hello again, that was my only source of venting my frustrations and she has to THROW IT INTO THE FISHING BIN. i wanted to totally crush her okay. CRUSH, CRUSH CRUSH LAH OMFG.

FISHMONGER DAMNIT.

-breathes in and out.
~~woah, stupid moronic piece of shit~~

okay, anyway, i was right about GN OWN GOAL.
and stupid PR still doesnt admit its his fault.
CUMMON LAH, YOURE PR FOR FISHMONGER'S SAKE.

(okay, i dont know whats wrong with me, but fish is no longer enough for me)

AND MAY AN ETERNAL CURSE FALL ON THAT STUPID ~~BRIBED~~BIASED REFEREE.
9 times okay.
9 times, BREAK MY RECORD LAH.
fine lah, you want to fight is it, FIGHT LAH
BRING IT ON.
just cause youre a stupid EURGH piece of jerk
doesnt make it legal to push me around you EURGH.

okay heck it
today's a bad day.
but i had nice people who tried to make it better :D
thanks tessa for teaching me how to laugh again!
thanks charlyne & peiwen for making me believe that _____ is totally outa her mind
thanks sam for your efforts in cheering me up
thanks teo for your stupid smses (: and the luck! :D
thanks everyone at macs for making me laugh further
thanks FF/F for trying to cheer me up to get ready (:

OH I BROKE MY OWN RECORD HOHOHO (:
now i do well, and i think i dont want to do well. eurgh, damnit damnit damnit. charlyne! now what do i do. ))): i want this, but i dont want this. i mean, its great! esp when my results are like that. but OMG SOMEONE KILL ME.

oh yes, im fully handicapp now.
and im so much in pain, i dont feel the pain anymore
JUST DONT HIT ME.
~~or i'll crush you~~
forget the threat, just PLEASE DONT HIT ME ):

(oh im sorry myra. i went mad :/ sorry sorry sorry.)

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{Thursday, October 12, 2006}
life is a piece of shit.

STUPID. STUPID STUPID
GN SCORED OWN GOAL OMG EURGH.
nevermind, i still love him alot alot and i still think he's veryvery good :D
in anyway, croatia was leading.

aiyuh, games carnival was a complete injury source and i dont wanna talk about it.
and i also declare my hate for referees.
ohoh, especially one that doesnt even bloody give a damn that im being TRIPPED 8 times by that big ball of fats.
damnit.
what ______. i know my swimming good lah, but you dont come and crap with me loh, piece of shit.

AND FROM THIS DAY ON, I DECLARE MY HATRED FOR MY GRANDMOTHER & BROTHER.
before you say anything and quarell with me about how cute my brother is (LIKE CHOYI. TSK)
PLEASE, just look at your brother who is 8 years younger and tell me whats so nice about him.
and if you dont have a brother eight years younger, PLEASE JUST SHUT UP AND DONT CRAP WITH ME.
oh, and let me remind you, the next time you ask, I HAVE NO BROTHER.
he aint my brother ANYWAY.

hah, i really like theo walcott and i think he's really good you know.
like compared to rooney/carrick.
OH AND I SWEAR ROONEY IS A MIDFIELDER.
coaches just dont believe it do they.
pieces of shit.

okay, come let me tell you about my latest obsession that i also mentioned in my prev post! (:
NICK WHITAKER (: ohmygoodness, so cute okay, i cant take it anymore (:

so cute YES!
got more pics one loh, but stupid blogger just kept messing up
oh wells (:
AH OMG SO CUTE HOHOHO (:

oh by the way, for reminder
PLEASE DO NOT HIT ME ANYWHERE.
please, i just beg of you.
even if you think softsoft, ITS VERY HARD TO ME REALLY.

I STILL CANT GET OVER THE OG OMG.
i bet it wasnt his fault lor, according to reliable sources, it was a backpass LOH
okay, im just being biased here heh (:

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{Wednesday, October 11, 2006}

fish, you know what.
i was blogging and my post disappeared.
just like that
and it was a LONG post.
damnit freakit

all i can say is i love nick whitaker and jason dolley.
i aint going to post all over again no way.

i dont know whats the problem with me i mean i gotta treasure this what. its an oppurtunity of my life. but this is so wrong damnit. so much to let go. WHATS WRONG WITH ME
do dreams ever come true?

sorry, thank you, farewell (:

thank you charlyne :D
it was alot to me, THANK YOU :D
i lay my love on you

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{Sunday, October 08, 2006}

omg okay omg lah
exams are like over over HISTORY.
BYEBYE :D

so unbelievable! I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING AND CRYING IN DELIGHT :D
WWWWWHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEE
okay. despite all that excitement.
im still worried
like omg, the results!
WHAT IF I CANT EXTEND THE DAMNIT TRIP.
im going to punch myself.
i swear.

EURGH, STUPID BRAIN CELLS THAT DIED.
now im a stupid silly moron.
tsk.

friday at grace's house funfunfunfunfun okay (:
prata the scary movie :D hahahah (: pizza POTATO CHIPS (: lanterns(: wax ): candles & sparkles!! :D RUNNING :D
hah, omg so fun okay :D
AH GRACE PLAYS THE GUITAR LIKE SHE HAS BEEN PLAYING IT SINCE SHE WAS IN THE STOMACH (:

sideline: THE STUPID CHINESE PASSAGE IS AS CONTRADICTING AS YUQING'S NAME!

STUPID LIFE.
you know i was thinking.
if i were to die tomm, there isnt anything great that i would LOVE TO DO you know.
its like, i want to meet torres & gerrard & klose & cristiano & SO MANY MORE >:/
but honestly its veryvery impossible?
so honestly, there isnt anything i would do other then REALLY TALK AND TALK to my friends if i were to die tomm.
i thought of the damn comp.
but i thought even deeper like i was HELLO.
comp for what? blog for what? no one will read it after you die.

how ironic.
i want to crush life.
I NEED DESPERATELY TO CRUSH SOMETHING OMG.

omg whats the damn problem with me?
its end of exams for gosh sake.

somebody punch me
-looks warningly at gloria sim.
NOTE TO GLORIA: HEY GLORIA, BE HONOURED. IM TERRIFIED OF YOU :O

stupid LIFE LAHHHH
stupid problems
PUNCH ME OMG.

OKAY, NEVERMIND.
now, im going to watch football until i drop :D
GO TORRES ♥
hah, and crouch :D
HAHAHAHAHAHH i love the way i love crouch cause it sets me into laughters :D

you ought to know how important you are to me

[[1:32 PM;

{Thursday, October 05, 2006}

i cant believe im thinking of football now.
BUT

MAN HOW I WISH TORRES IS GOING TO LIVERPOOL INSTEAD.
and now, i will totally fall in love with man u instead.

GOSH WHATS WRONG WITH ME.

hah, i still like CROUCH alot. and its crouch lah.
tsk.

GOSH BLAHS=DHDJAHJIDHAUIFNHGUIASH!@$!@$@$^%$*&(^*$$#^%#&%(#%@ LAH.
I WANT TO BLOODY EXTEND MY TRIP OMG.

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EH STUPID EXAMS.

stupid karon and her stupid bad command of languages.

IM LIKE 99.99999999999% SURE I FAILED MY ENGLISH.
tsk.

ok heck it.
people said maths was good for me.
but hello
1 good paper and 8 other BAD papers dont not equate to one happy karon.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT,
HECK IT

~~CUMMON EXAMS, IM NOT SCARED OF YOU.~~
YOU DONT SCARE ME.
BRING IT ON!

who am i joking.
i seriously care
because i want to extend my trip.
im seriously scared.

EURGH HECK LAH OMG.

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{Monday, October 02, 2006}
PROs and CONs

due to the pleasing of some cool people who think that im a freaking loser & poser and dont have brains, because i found it a waste of time to please myself, please fill in the appropiate blanks and smiley faces ;)

the bad thing: i flunged geog, i flung chinese 1, english 1 & science
the worse thing: history is going to join in the lot, together with english
the good thing: i wont flung, i will pass with a mere half marks.
the bad thing: it aint good enough for ____
the good thing: i dont give a damn
the contradicting thing: i give a damn.

the bad thing: history is tomm and i dont even know when did the japanese come to singapore
the good thing: tomm marks the end of 6 papers leaving 3
the bad thing: tomm hasnt come.
the worse thing: im not ready for tomm

the bad thing: liverpool lost
the good thing: manu won
the bad thing: i prefer liverpool
the good thing: it only proves that the stupid coach should play ______ from the starting
the best thing: ______ is the BEST (:

the good thing: my mum went overseas
the bad thing: my mum went GERMANY
the good thing: im going to hk
the not so good thing: im ____ing with her
the good thing: im ____ing with (:
the bad thing: i might not be able to extend trip
the worse thing: shes ______ing the ____
the good thing: im going to clear up the mess (hopefully)
the bad thing: shes going to ____ me
the good thing: (: is going to save me

the bad thing: its still the exams
the good thing: its ending in 4 days time!
the bad thing: 4 days is very long
the worse thing: 4 days = 96 hours
the even worse thing: 4 days = 96 hours = 5760 minutes
the worst thing: i cant take a second of this torture anymore
the good thing: THERES NO GOOD THING.

the bad thing: my heart cramps every exam, leaving me in utmost discomfort
the good thing: after 4 days, NO MORE CRAMPS
the bad thing: please refer to the above par.

the bad thing: im stupid
the good thing: people say im not stupid
the bad thing: i know im stupid
~~the worse thing: im stuck in the rubbish chute~~
the worse thing: not only am i stupid, my language command is VERY bad & i have no common sense.
the good thing: NO, THERE ISNT ANY GOOD THING OUT OF THIS EITHER.

the bad thing: i lost my motivation
the good thing: i got 1/8 of it back thanks to (:
the bad thing: its only 1/8 & my brain gave up on me. and i gave up on it cause it was too stupid
the good thing: i still have time to gain back 7/8 of my motivation.
the bad thing: by that time comes, its midnight.

the bad thing: i really really cant do it
the worse thing: im doomed if i cant do it
the worst thing: IM DOOMED.

the good thing: by the end of this post, i vow to gain back at least 3/8 of my motivation
the doubt: CAN I DO IT?
the bad answer: no i cant.

the bad thing: geog & eng1 & chi1 & chem & phsyics papers are so difficult
the good thing: im going to crush the heads of the setters who set the above papers
the better thing: the bio paper was okay, it makes me want to hug the setter
the bad thing: although it was okay, i know im too stupid to score well.
the worse thing: im actually waving goodbye to my trip. science.

the bad thing: im too stupid and i even forgot to bring my stupid calculator
the good thing: gloria the KIND SOUL lent it to me. :D

the best thing: i will study. i will do my best and make (: proud
:D

i want to:
CRUSH THOSE SETTER'S HEAD.
slap myself.
get my motivation back
slack.

im going to:
CRUSH THOSE SETTER'S HEAD. yes, literally.
slap myself.
study
get my motivation back.

AW, AINT I A GOOD GIRL (:
okay, this is all for (: okay.
stupid, otherwise i'll be like playing the comp ALL THE WAY TO MIDNIGHT PLEASE.

btw, did i mention im supah sleepy and want to just slap that golden wedding dinner for not ending earlier. but nonetheless THE DESERT IS UBBER NICE (:

hello cool people, i have done my best to please all of you. i know im unable to spare you of my loser posts, but ive done my best. and pardon me if i have used some POSER words. i have put in effort. & i cannot deny that im stupid and brainless. but i was wondering, if im so stupid & brainless, why do you visit my blog. i mean, dont you COOL people have COOLER things to do? :O like instead of coming to my blog and read my loser posts and roll your eyes at them, go do COOLER things?

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